It's "D" New Year New Beginnings.......2013

Happy New Year to all my family and friends!!!!! We did it.....We survived another year!!!!! As we say good bye to 2012 and welcome in 2013, we can look ahead towards new and wonderful things!!!! Some of us have suffered terrible losses...this past year. With the falling economy some of us have lost jobs, homes, cars, finances, all replaceable, but, some of us have lost loved ones, including myself. Death is never easy and the loss of a loved one is irreplaceable, the pain is unbearable for some, and unless you have gone through it, you just cannot understand!!! My heart goes out to you....and all I can say is this, that in time it gets a little easier, but it never really goes away!!!! And some days are harder than others, and then there are days its feels like it was yesterday!!! But we survive because we must, because we have to, then it's gets better....the days get a little easier bearable, and you start to believe you can and will survive for you as much as them....and for the ones that are left behind, you press on and you live the life, they would have wanted you too.....

So now I think....oh yes thinking again, is there any rhyme or reason to life in general or why things really happen the way they do, or to the people that don't deserve it? No, there isn't, it's just LIFE and Crap happens....you just have to remember, we live in the world, not of the world, and when we choose to allow ourselves to become desensitized, then we ourselves have reached a point of no return...it's okay to feel, it's okay to cry to have feelings, I think I have learned that even in losing someone we love so dearly, we have to not lose ourselves!!!!! We can have emotions without becoming emotional, to the point where we lose control for so long where it effects our health, and we no longer want to go on!!! Because trust me, when my sister died in May, I just wanted to give up and die myself...she was my lil Jo-ann my baby sister, whom I was suppose to spend the rest of my life with...our dreams...she was suppose to share my "D" News w/me....share our Golden Years together!!!!! GONE....WIPED OUT in the blink of an eye!!! Where does one begin to find the courage to let go of yesterday, and find the strength to press on? As I write this article the tears flood my eyes....I miss her so much, but I now know I have to press on, stay my course for her as much as me!!! I am learning it's not always about having what you think will make you happy, it's about finding happiness in what you have, and what you can improve about your life!

We are always going to be "US" we are never going to be someone else. It's really about coming to terms with yourself and loving yourself for who you are. If you need to do something than do it for you, not for someone else! I have held on far too long, thinking I can't go on, unless I have certain people in my life, and trying hard to keep them in it. In the end, if you are holding on and fighting to keep them in your life, it isn't meant to be. Things that are pure and real and have meaning in your life, you don't have to battle to keep. They just fit....they work themselves out...it all comes together in the end....So, you see, maybe we need to stop fighting ourselves and let go of the people and things that are holding us back.....

Sometimes, we put people up on a pedestal and rely too much on what they tell us, instead of trusting our own judgement. Their not our GOD....Or we are too busy trying to please everyone else and we lose ourselves in the interim. Sometimes you just have to say NO, doesn't mean you don't care...just means you need a little time for you too!!! In the end we may never find what truly makes us happy, but we must strive to find what gives US peace and calm...what I call a happy medium, then and only then, will you start to be happy, and when your happy and feel happy and live happy....the rest will take it's course....it's like a ship lost at sea....only to find her way home.......Some journey's take longer than others....and you may encounter many storms along the way, like the brave skipper, who battled the storm, if you want to make it out...you will find your way, this is YOUR JOURNEY TO TRAVEL.....and it's okay, some never reach their final destination till the very END, they just keep sailing on.....whatever your course may be....keep on sailing.........

 And in the end maybe....Just maybe, you'll find your HAPPY EVER AFTER!!!!! So, NEVER give up your DREAMS, YOUR DREAMS belong to YOU!!!!! Dream out LOUD and...DREAM BIG and Make this 2013 D BEST YEAR YET!!!!! Set some GOALS, start small, so you can stick w/them and watch the CHANGE you can BE in yourself...Anything is Possible when you have faith, trust God and BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I Believe Miracles Do come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hard work...faith and God can take you anywhere you want to travel!!!!! God Bless and Be a Blessing!!!! You only Get ONE LIFE!!!! So live the life you were meant to LIVE, Live Laugh Love W/no regrets...Living to 100 Loving Sunshine Always!!!!!!!! I love You!!!!!! Always have always will!!!!! Hugs "D" Butterfly kisses
Copyright 1/1/13 Donna L. Maholage